From a very young age I was shown the truth about myself:
I am absolutely ridiculous.
This truth applied to almost all my ideas and desires.
And since I have learnt it from a very young age,
it is encoded deep in my personal neurology.
As a result, I am not able to give permission to my ideas and desires.
As a result, I am fixated on approval and my sense of connection suffers greatly.
And it cannot be unlearnt.
The best I can do now is to learn how to use it to my advantage,
to investigate what it would mean if I was willing to be absolutely ridiculous at all times.
This willingness is
a type of freedom,
a type of empowerment.
And it is not an easy task.
Text by Birds WG ( extract from my unpublished collection of awareness poetry "The meaning of my words")